Sometimes I see...

women in my life who are struggling so hard to keep their head above the water. It reminds me of times when I felt I would drown. I've only told a couple of people about this dream I had many years ago. It was so vivid and left an impression on my heart so deep that when I woke up I had to write it down: 

January 2007

I was swimming in the ocean. This huge squid came and latched itself on my leg. I tried to break free from it and I couldn't. My mom and another woman came and were fighting it too. We were all struggling to pry it off. I looked down and saw my leg shriveling up. The thing was sucking out my life and no matter how much my loved ones wanted to help me I was the only one that had the knife in my pocket to kill it and pry it off. It was really hard to get that knife, I had to pull it out of my back pocket. As I endured the pain of my leg and organs being sucked out I felt this surge of strength because I didn't want to die. I wanted to live and so I stabbed the squid. He wouldn't give up. I stabbed it again and this time he loosened his grip. I was able to squiggle away and he didn't follow me. He was way bigger than my knife and me, he was just wounded and swam away. I swam to the top. I was free.

I read this entry the other day and I felt tears welling up in my eyes. I had forgotten about this dream and I didn't know what it meant to me until I read it a couple months ago.

Have faith that the strength is by your side, recognize your divine nature, you deserve love. Let your gut guide your choices and enhance your thoughts by beginning to imagine a hopeful future. Gain knowledge of your situation and your options. Its your choice to be happy take it and be accountable that your choices affect you as well as those around you. Fill your heart with positivity, even if it's one tiny piece at time. Allow your intelligence & resilience to shine through- nobody deserves to endure abuse, no matter what. Trust that your intuition will guide you to remember who you are. There's a tribe of people waiting for you on the other end, we are all here when you are ready.