Stop Being A Little Girl

I'm reading this book, it's really cool because it's helping me figure out why it's so hard to assert myself as a woman instead of a poor little girl.

I remember a time when I felt so guilty about talking about bad things that happened to me or that others did to me or of telling what really happened. (not slander or disrespect, just truth about things that you have overcome) When I felt guilty about being mad when I felt betrayed or I found out someone lied to my face. When I heard people say I was exaggerating or a psycho because I reported things that the law allows us to report and be protected from. When supervised visitation was the only visitation my heart felt comfortable with. When I didn't want to have a baby by myself and considered adoption. When I didn't tell anyone I was pregnant because I didn't want to be. 

The law protected me (not easily but through proof beyond a reasonable doubt) and my rights but society, and many of the people around me, didn't. 

Some thought I was being mean or harsh because I was protecting myself and my kids and asserting myself as a woman. I think even now, some people may read this and think they are smarter or better than me because they keep their troubles deep inside and never assert their freedom from society, others offenses or even themselves.

This struggle is one of the hardest parts of my path to freedom (which I haven't finished walking). 

It is not crazy OR mean to: 

want to be happy. 

want to feel appreciated. 

hate being pregnant. 

want to do everything you ever imagined. 

assert yourself as a woman. 

be single or married.

distinguish the actions you will allow in your life. 

avoid people that make you feel sad, depressed or even mad. 

not be friends with people who have hurt you. 

Our life is full of our personal choices. Choose to be happy, then imagine yourself there. Now, how did you get to that place? What people are there with you and what people aren't? What actions and decisions today will lead you to be whatever it is that brings you true happiness?